When Ryan and I sat down for breakfast this morning, I checked my little pregnancy app on my phone. It said "72 days to go!" It seems like it was only a little while ago that we were 200+ days to go. And I thought it was only recently that we broke double digits.
I said to him that its crazy how "one day, there's not a person, then the next day, here's a person! Are you ready to be responsible for the life of a whole other person?" Am I?
So then I did the natural thing and spent the past 2 hours looking up maternity and newborn photo ideas online. Nevermind what all the books and Parenting Magazine says... Nothing says "awesome parents" quite like a collection of beautiful maternity and newborn photos.
During my research, I viewed a number of professional websites and took a look at their galleries. Everybody had bridal, wedding, family, babies. There was a rare gem that stood out to me on a site or two: Trash the Dress. I was reminded of it from when a friend at Bradley class mentioned it. Its a relatively new phenomenon where young brides realize that they will never wear this fancy wedding dress again, so why not go a little crazy with it? I hadn't seen what all the big deal what about, so I browsed through a few Trash the Dress galleries. And woah, holy crap!
http://www.flickr.com/photos/eddisrocknroll/7580542546/in/pool-trashthedress/
This is my new motivation to get back into wedding-day shape after pregnancy! I want to stand in a waterfall with a silk bouquet, in my wedding dress! I want to float the river in my wedding dress. I want to get into a mud fight in my wedding dress. I want to run the Warrior Dash in my wedding dress. I want to go surfing in my wedding dress. I want to have a watermelon eating contest in my wedding dress. I want to play paint ball in my wedding dress. I want to be sloppy making a cake in my wedding dress. And I want it all on film.
What is it with our obsession with creative and aesthetically overwhelming photos? I like art and creating art. Ironically, I'm not very crafty, so the art I make is not so top notch. But I feel like I make up for that by appreciating other people's artsy qualities and work more than necessary. It is a respectable talent. So I find myself wanting awesome photos of my family, so that friends and strangers alike might be distracted from real life and have something to look at and think awesome things about us.
Thursday, July 26, 2012
Saturday, July 14, 2012
Someday I'll start something I might finish
Between the gluten free pretzels and pinch cup of Nutela in front of me, I'm trying to find the will to write something.
I'm starting over with trying to write a blog. The original "Keep In Touch" part 1 fizzled out a few years ago, so now I will try a new start with a less original part 2. Once again I've given in to the notion that I'd like to be a writer. Someone who can say stuff that other's think is important or interesting, or entertaining, or inspiring. But still stay at a safe distance if people think that what I said is stupid.
The ideas are there, but effort + motivation is a tricky thing to come by. For me, at least. I keep a to-do list on most days, and find a sense of satisfaction by crossing out tasks I've accomplished. But I'm still too embarrassed to put "blog" on it. Partly because I don't like the word, but haven't come up with a more pleasing alternative, and mostly because I don't want to face the shame of not scraping together 30 minutes to externally process an idea in writing, though I regularly waste more than that with my cell phone game.
I'd like to think that I could write short stories or memoires of my own, and those of others. I also think I could write commentaries on observations of life and experiences. Some day I'll figure out how to use the semi-fancy camera we just got, and show real life images of what I'm talking about.
So it leads me to wonder why do people blog? Why do I want to do it? Some are experts in their fields and have a lot to enlighten us with, for example mommies, world travelers, and crafty people. Some people are really gifted entertainers who humor us with their stories and cartoons. I figure for most people, though, having a blog is kind of like a public diary/soapbox where they can say what they want to say and hope someone else out there thinks that it matters. That's why I want to write. I don't know for sure if what I have to say matters, but I want to matter. And I want to matter to myself, which in part is achieved just by having a blog and being consistent with it.
There are a few things here and there that I feel kind of proud of, but nothing super creative. I don't make fancy cakes and cupcakes like my sister, or paint, or crochet, or scrapbook like my friends do. This is the creative thing that I want to do, that matters to me.
I'm starting over with trying to write a blog. The original "Keep In Touch" part 1 fizzled out a few years ago, so now I will try a new start with a less original part 2. Once again I've given in to the notion that I'd like to be a writer. Someone who can say stuff that other's think is important or interesting, or entertaining, or inspiring. But still stay at a safe distance if people think that what I said is stupid.
The ideas are there, but effort + motivation is a tricky thing to come by. For me, at least. I keep a to-do list on most days, and find a sense of satisfaction by crossing out tasks I've accomplished. But I'm still too embarrassed to put "blog" on it. Partly because I don't like the word, but haven't come up with a more pleasing alternative, and mostly because I don't want to face the shame of not scraping together 30 minutes to externally process an idea in writing, though I regularly waste more than that with my cell phone game.
I'd like to think that I could write short stories or memoires of my own, and those of others. I also think I could write commentaries on observations of life and experiences. Some day I'll figure out how to use the semi-fancy camera we just got, and show real life images of what I'm talking about.
So it leads me to wonder why do people blog? Why do I want to do it? Some are experts in their fields and have a lot to enlighten us with, for example mommies, world travelers, and crafty people. Some people are really gifted entertainers who humor us with their stories and cartoons. I figure for most people, though, having a blog is kind of like a public diary/soapbox where they can say what they want to say and hope someone else out there thinks that it matters. That's why I want to write. I don't know for sure if what I have to say matters, but I want to matter. And I want to matter to myself, which in part is achieved just by having a blog and being consistent with it.
There are a few things here and there that I feel kind of proud of, but nothing super creative. I don't make fancy cakes and cupcakes like my sister, or paint, or crochet, or scrapbook like my friends do. This is the creative thing that I want to do, that matters to me.
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